Doing nothing together

Bore me for a long time
because it's so exciting

Realing Dreaming

I'm running on no sleep
I'd rather miss dreaming
for the real thing
My thoughts are distracted
by how much I'm attracted

My mind keeps on spinning
my face always grinning
I don't plan on this dimming quickly

Still I keep trying
to spend any spare time beside you
What's gotten into me?

I've gotten all giddy
I'm acting just silly
to miss you

It's driving me cray
how easy you've made it
I can't resist you

I swear this isn't happening
If I'm just dreaming
don't dare wake me

But if I'm awake
and you're really with me
sleeping will never be the same again

Better with You

You are better every day.
I'm waiting for the catch

I could look at your eyes forever
I just might if you let me
Everyday is better with you

Things started out so backward
I was far from here
Something happened to me
Everyday is better with you

Different

You drove me crazy
you still do
just differently
I think so much of what
we said and did
just differently

I never would have guessed
I'd be so smitten
with someone like you
who wasn't really you at all

Too Long

Too long since I last saw you
Too long since I heard your voice
Too long since I sat close to you
Too bad there was no easy choice

Too long since I waited for you
Too long since you held me when I cried
Too long are the days without you
Too long since we said goodbye

Too long thinking fond thoughts of you
Too long praying for some way
Too much blue without you
Long enough for my heart to decay

Holding Hands

Run your fingers down my palm
tell me what the lines mean
Even if my fortune's
just a game to make me smile
Tracing out each impression
made by years of holding on
to something else
Now just the drag of your fingertips
your skin brushing mine
makes a more permanent impression
than the lines carved out by life
I just want to hold on
to imprint this in my mind
Feel you--innocently
Hold on to more than this simple moment
Dont take your hand away forever.
It means more than just a juvenile display of affection

Expectations

This isn't what I expected
though I don't quite know what I was looking for
I see so much that I can learn and grow from
More. Every time I start to catch up
something new blows me away
I would not change it if I could
Everything more than I ever wanted
I'm sure it's leading me the right direction
The way almost seems clearer up ahead
Still there is more in all directions
More to swallow, more to take,
more to please, more reason to celebrate

Which Way to Go

My heart's racing
just moments before my life changes
Anticipating
all the directions I can go this time
Which is the way?
Do I just stay right where I'm at
and see things happen around me?
Do I make a move?
Can I even choose?
Or are the cards all laid down for me?
Any way things go
it all goes on with or without me
So where should I be?
I wish I could see the end from the beginning

You're Already Happy

I never thought I could be this comfortable
I am used to convincing people
all it's worth to have me around
Trying too hard, selling myself, putting on a show
until I'm not me anymore

With you I am completely at ease
Not always trying to please
because you've made it clear
you're already happy

And I can't help but try to let my guard down
to see if you've found, what I've been hiding
Not that I'm trying
It is a reflex with you

Misunderstanding

What do you see?
My honesty just gets in the way
I try to be clear
yet things are so muddled
and perceived so differently
My attempts to make it simple
complicates things further
Your vision gets clouded
and I get defensive
Innocent, benevolent intentions
only take me, where?

Keep My Feet on the Ground

I don't know if I have rhythm
I am afraid I'll fall if I climb too high
I try to think my way out of the way I'm going
I am not ready to dance, my feet wont even move
Not ready to swing, may have lost the groove
Keep my feet on the ground
'cause I already fall too much as it is
On the subject of falling--
I think I'm not ready to love someone
I'll convince myself I don't--not now...
They won't be around when I'm ready anyway

Hypothetically

Hypothetically, I'll be yours forever
Hypothetically, we'll wake up each day together
Hypothetically, I'll make your house my home
Hypothetically I'll never be alone again
Hypothetically makes it seem alright
to imagine what our life would be like
Hypothetically

Poetry from 2005 II

Happy with you, being happy with me
Can't figure out how this happened
All so unexpected, Now I am all overcome
with everything that's going on

Things couldn't be the same with out you,
now that I've found you
Makes me wonder how I ever got along before
You're what I've been missing
what I didn't know was missing until I found you

Now I'd be all empty, like loosing a part of me
A puzzle piece that was missing from the box
But now I have the puzzle piece
It is the part of me I've been lost with out

I wasn't searching, I wasn't looking,
I wasn't trying to find what was missing
Now that I've found you, I can't go on without you
Yesterdays seem empty now that you're here
Tomorrows will bepurposeless without you now

Poems From 2005 I

I just want to fall in love like in the movies

but I'm stuck with reality and that's all make believe

It's not that I think love should come easily

but can't it at least come at all?

I've opened my heart before; that lesson's been learned

no one gets inside anymore but that adds to the hurt

There's got to be something that will unseal it again

Is that too much 'Ever After' to ask for you to send?

I want the someone who makes yesterdays seem empty now that they're here

that missing someone I've been lost without 'till now

the certain one who makes me want to be better

who lifts me so I fly when all I see are me feet dragging on the ground

Is it only in fiction that there is a reason to hope

for something as selfless as what I wish to be truth?

Wait for me to be ready, help me see what I can't

Give me reason to sacrifice my plans and a means to dream them larger